Terkadang

Sometimes..

All the things that i had planned went upside down..

Suddenly i lost the track..my view was so hazy..

The path i took no longer the right one..

I feel so weak..

Then i tried to have self-refelection..

Try to find my self.. try to check foot print that i left far away behind me..

Trying to look back the path i have took..

Yes..i can see the mistake i have made..one by one..

That mistakes brought me here..the lost world !!

Seriously??

I crlued up my body..tried to flash back..no..
Yes..I know this is not a right time for me to comfort my self..
But..come on, i need time to figure out !!

I need time to fix it !! Not all thing can be fix easily..

Thi is life crisis..I don;t want to cry all night long for the rest of my life..

NO WAY !!

I know i can't return back..but i still have a chance to fix the things..

So, please let me cuddling my self here for a while to think..

My eyes must be sharp to catch all the mistakes that i might be overlooked..

My brain must be wisely think the way out and the solution..

Not a reason !! A solution !!

I don't want people see how weak i am..

I know im not a super woman or wonder woman..

But i m too weak to wait others to rescue me !!

I know Allah gave me this test to make me stronger..

Allah would never give something more that we could bear..

Its okay..what i need now is time and space for me to figure out the solution..i believe that Allah may help me for this..